why cats
Crab, big, im killing him. im killing hi even with his own pointy leg. Easy. Ash's head on the crab. I keep trying to kill him. No matter how hard i kick the head Ash crab doesnt die. After a particularly strong kick he becomes silent/non moving, but then starts purring. and i decide to kill him with covering his nostrils. i cant keep him alive fter the damage ive caused its cruel? And i hear him purring and I start to weep, even tears i think, as i am holding my fingers on his nostrils im so sad, im so remorseful over what i have done, and that i shouldnt have done that, and that i cant stop now no matter how horribly sad it is, it gets, and im holding him in a hug, and im telling him I Love You so much Ash, IM SO SORRY IM SO SO SORRY. And even though i dont necesserily feel that its the truth it IS truth more or less, it becomes one. I want my love to save him, to stop me from hurting him. to stop my past me from hurting him, the crab cat. He isnt dying. He is purrin...