An Emotional Journey

 rectangular brown шкаф material tunnel, i have to go thru, only me apparently. and Archie (G.) wants me to take my white wired cheap headphones with me this time . it feels untenable (?? word?). it feels like i will get stuck or something with them with me. but then i hide them in my pocket and can do it. 🥫 (just a memory trigger, this can, sorry (on android!)) i can move the walls of the tunnel, to fit. and as i crawl i think Why do i have to (keep) do(ong) this. it's generous. what if i get stuck? that's how cave explorers feel, terrifying. i don't want to get stuck. but also Why Would I get stuck? I've been thru these tunnels many times. getting stuck is just a fear causes by the fact that if something WAS to happen i wouldn't be able to escape, to get out. i would die here (here - home?) i just move the walls to make the tunnel bigger, bc even my head wouldn't fit in this one, idk if it was supposed to be moved but here we are. it's dusty, no one has e...

 Dream in which i and a girl and a man crawl, as a part of our job through narrow underground tunnels, not reinfortced, just soil. i feel safe and then i dont, sure and then not, sure in myself and then not.  [I am too wide to fit into the situations i am trying to get into i need to go outside onto the surface],  and when they crawl into one particularly narrow, uneven, bulging-walled tunnel i stop and am afraid to go because i FEEL, i KNOW i will get stuck, but they encourage me. I dont know how THEY did it since they seem to be kinda my size? and i feel "Ok! ill just crawl i know it looks impossible but when i do it it will become possible". And just as i start into that part of the tunnels the ceiling begins crumbling due to my big frame.  (I feel pretty safe and certain in myself before the last tunnel and only when i am getting sorta outside of the normal size zone do i feel threatened) I keep trying to get through bc ive been told i totally can do this means w...