I've Fucked Up and That's On Me

I went to Mercedes factory today, instead of immediately writing me a note about how I can't work here the manager gave me a test. "I cant just discard you Im afraid". An English test. An easy test. Limited time (she gave me 15, but i think she had cut it short), i wasnt really worried. I am good at this. 

I have failed it. I thought maybe she just pretended because she had no position for me and had to write me off as incompetent. But I was standing just now in the kitchen, trying to think objectively, and have recalled the questions I have actually struggled with. Yes, buddy, you still suck at things. Specifically Past Perfect. OHH the dreaded PP. And complex sentences with two tenses. Yup thats my cryptonite all 
right.
Now i am ashamed to show my face to the unemployment center. "How do you know you know english?" I dont, lady, i really dont.
This is my first professional heartbreak. Fuck my feelings. 
Tenses I need to learn tenses i need to learn tenses i need to learn tenses i need to learn tenses i need to learn tenses i need to learn tenses i need to learn tenses i need to learn tenses i need to learn tenses i need to learn tenses i need to learn tenses i need to learn tenses i need to learn tenses i need to learn tenses i need to learn tenses i need to learn tenses i need to learn tenses i need to learn tenses i need to learn tenses i
The light of a dream job sparkling in the distance had really put my head high above clouds, i really was sure i didnt do bad. 
ps. Oh also, Y. bailed on me (which is ok, she deserves to not be forced to do something she doesnt have energy for). But it happened not long before the Test. Double Whammy.

PLUS SIDE!! PEOPLE WERE LOVELY HELPFUL AND NICE TO ME AND I WAS NICE TO THEM AND HELPED!!! GOOD FEELING!!!

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