tooth and triceratops

 tooth, with a black root(legs?), first one part, superficial, plastic wrappy, broke off, that's fine... but then i mess around a little bit more w it and i suddenly, and with strange relief, feel the whole tooth(upper part, above the belt), coming off. i feel relief even if i know that the.. root of the(problem) is still there. (this is about yesterday's fight with your mom. refer to #personalle on your blog. it's a good thing question mark) you thinking about going to the kitchen, to your mom, to show her the tooth(lack thereof), also u could've shown her the tooth itself but u threw it away? why. anyway u want to, it will probably help u get the help u need(dental help), make her convinced. u will have to open your mouth to her, but it will really help, at least emotionally (for you) to ask for the dental help money


climbing the rock wall, finding a triceratops skeleton, a small guy, i tell my ppl look! turns out they were not big at all! i feel affectionate about this guy. all my childhood i thought he is big, but he is actually very cute-ly sized. I'm a bit upset, but also not. i walk around the rock, the top where i am, after holding him up, and THERE i see real big guys, massive horn wearing pals. but, i think, slightly upset, they are much older, they are from an older period, more ancient. it's not the same, but they are big so it's cool i guess. but i make myself accept them

side note - tshirt idea - spineless steel

 

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